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I feel worthless, useless.
A pest, a weight, ruining everything.
I feel broken, shattered, like glass.
I have no hope, no light.
Feeling like running away.
From everything that curses me.
I don't feel like living with this anymore.
I feel like falling, endlessly, into the ocean.
Under the waves, choking, drowning.
Where I try to lift my hands up.
My body is heavy, my mind is scrambled.
I don't think normally anymore.
The words don't have a proper sentence.
I listen to their poison lies, over and over.
I can't do much else, it's the only thing in my head.
I've wished and worked hard.
To no avail have my efforts been.
So I suffer night after night.
Day after day, time after time.
I will continue to suffer, I fear, always.
Forever. I don't think I'll ever get better.
I feel like surrendering. I feel like choking.
I don't feel like I'm alive anymore.
I feel like I'm dead inside.
The emotions I once had, that were strong.
I still feel them, but this stress gets in the way.
No matter what I do it haunts me, follows me.
Even in times of much happiness.
I can't be too happy, or it'll hurt me.
It keeps me down, keeps me sad.
And all I ever wanted to be was happy.
A pest, a weight, ruining everything.
I feel broken, shattered, like glass.
I have no hope, no light.
Feeling like running away.
From everything that curses me.
I don't feel like living with this anymore.
I feel like falling, endlessly, into the ocean.
Under the waves, choking, drowning.
Where I try to lift my hands up.
My body is heavy, my mind is scrambled.
I don't think normally anymore.
The words don't have a proper sentence.
I listen to their poison lies, over and over.
I can't do much else, it's the only thing in my head.
I've wished and worked hard.
To no avail have my efforts been.
So I suffer night after night.
Day after day, time after time.
I will continue to suffer, I fear, always.
Forever. I don't think I'll ever get better.
I feel like surrendering. I feel like choking.
I don't feel like I'm alive anymore.
I feel like I'm dead inside.
The emotions I once had, that were strong.
I still feel them, but this stress gets in the way.
No matter what I do it haunts me, follows me.
Even in times of much happiness.
I can't be too happy, or it'll hurt me.
It keeps me down, keeps me sad.
And all I ever wanted to be was happy.
Literature
social anxiety.
i'm sorry,
but we can't talk.
not now, not ever.
because i may say
something i'll
regret later.
because i may make
you feel very
uncomfortable.
because i may just
stop breathing for
the rest of the day.
because i may upset
you and you'll run
away forever.
i hope you understand
i'm only doing this
for your own good.
it's not really for me.
i can just feel it.
and it's not good.
my throat tenses up.
my head throbs around.
my fingertips stop feeling.
i'll stop wishing i were
here and start wishing
i were in the ground.
six and a half feet under
would be much better
than speaking out loud.
silence escapes my lips
as
Literature
Depression
Lay down your right to be human.
Put on a dazzling smile so that no one can see your pain.
You hide it all so well, but underneath your shirt you can still feel the scars.
No one knows what it is like to be you.
Your smile is but one in a billion,
A mask that you wear to ward off the questions.
Your scars are your war paint,
But this is a losing battle.
You are sent to face the demons all alone, though they will never leave your side.
So keep that pretty smile steady,
And don't let one tear drop from those stormy eyes.
Put on your war paint and go out into the world, where your smile makes you just like them.
Literature
Dear Anxiety
Dear anxiety,
I went to the psychologist today
and was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder.
It all fits:
the tense muscles,
the unremitting shyness,
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I don't know what category to put this in...
Oh well.
For those of you who don't know what Anxiety Disorder is:
[link]
Basically, for those who are all TL;DR
It's where your fears take control of your life, you get Panic Attacks from certain things, and can even prevent you from doing things all the way to never going outside your house.
You even get agoraphobia (fear of people) and refuse to make contact with certain people. It's very disabling to some people who have it really bad.
Oh well.
For those of you who don't know what Anxiety Disorder is:
[link]
Basically, for those who are all TL;DR
It's where your fears take control of your life, you get Panic Attacks from certain things, and can even prevent you from doing things all the way to never going outside your house.
You even get agoraphobia (fear of people) and refuse to make contact with certain people. It's very disabling to some people who have it really bad.
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This is beautiful. Thank you for writing something that most of us (including myself) can understand & relate to.